“SOMETIMES WHEN YOU PICK UP YOUR CHILD YOU CAN FEEL THE MAP OF YOUR OWN BONES BENEATH YOUR HANDS, OR SMELL THE SCENT OF YOUR SKIN IN THE NAPE OF HIS NECK. THIS IS THE MOST EXTRAORDINARY THING ABOUT MOTHERHOOD – FINDING A PIECE OF YOURSELF SEPARATE AND APART THAT ALL THE SAME YOU COULD NOT LIVE WITHOUT.”
-JODI PICOULT,PERFECT MATCH
BECOMING A MOTHER TO SOREN HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED MY VIEW ON PARENTHOOD. WHAT IT MEANS, WHAT IT DOES AND WHAT IT CAUSES.
I WOULD EVEN SAY IT CHANGES YOU AS A HUMAN BEING. COMPLETELY.
YOU CONNECT SO MUCH MORE WITH THE WORLD AROUND YOU.
I REMEMBER WHEN SOREN WAS FIRST BORN, I WOULD DRIVE AROUND TO PUT HIM TO SLEEP. I COULD JUST PARK SOMEWHERE AND WATCH HIM SLEEP PEACEFULLY.
THEN I WOULD LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE DRIVING OR WALKING AND THINKING; ALL THESE PEOPLE WERE BORN FROM A MOTHER. WE ALL HAVE THE SAME, IDENTICAL BEGINNING. HUMANS ARE ULTIMATELY CONNECTED WITH THIS SIMPLE FACT.
RICH OR POOR. BLACK OR WHITE. EDUCATED OR NOT.
HOPEFULLY THEY WERE LOVED AND CARED FOR AS MUCH AS THEY DESERVED IT. BECAUSE WE ALL DO.
BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR ANOTHER LITTLE HUMAN CAN BE *AND IS* A COMPLETELY MIND BLOWING ROLLER COSTER. BUT SO DIVINE.
TO NURTURE THEIR LITTLE HEARTS AND SHAPE THEIR LIVES ARE SUCH GREAT RESPONSIBILITIES, AND I DON’T THINK THAT ANY OF US FEEL ADEQUATE TO FULFILL THAT.
WE ARE, IN THEIR EYES. WHICH IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
TO SEE SOREN’S LITTLE FACE LIGHT UP EVERY TIME I ENTER THE ROOM, TO NOW HAVE HIM RUN TOWARDS ME JUST TO GIVE ME A HUG OR, MY FAVORITE THE CLASSIC YET POWERFUL “I WUV YOU MOMMY” JUST RUINS ME FOREVER.
TO HAVE THE LOVE THAT YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND/PARTNER HAVE FOR EACH OTHER, EMBODIED IN ONE LITTLE CREATURE, MIGHT NOT BE THE MEANING OF LIFE, BUT DAMN CLOSE TO IT.
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL MY LOVELY MAMAS OUT THERE.
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